Poster for my Film

(Sentence below: Only by reconciling with the past can one move towards the future）

    The film narrates the protagonist's (my own) journey in pursuit of love and understanding it. In 2023, I called my mother to inquire about the truth behind my parents' divorce, but she refused to discuss it. Subsequently, all those aware of the details avoided the topic and criticized me for my ignorance and naivety as an adult. In 2024, when I returned to my hometown and had a face-to-face conversation with my mother, I realized that she, whom I had perceived as fragile, was much stronger than I had imagined. She had learned to let go of the past and face the future with a smile. After our conversation, I finally understood that what I sought was not merely the truth about my father's departure, but a compensation for the lack of his love during my youth. In this twelve-year misalignment of love, I was the one who had not come to terms with the past. Through this pursuit, I was able to sit down and have a calm conversation with my long-estranged father, and I came to realize that reconciliation with the past is necessary to move forward into the future.

    The reason for the title "A Diary Review To Myself" is that, through my diary entries and the unfolding events, I gradually reconciled with the past. Reflecting on this journey, no matter how radical and naive the starting point may have seemed, it was my obsession with home that guided me—an obsession rooted in regrets and unresolved feelings since I was thirteen. Perhaps, in many instances, family members, engrossed in their busy lives, overlooked each other's feelings and needs, leading to misunderstandings and estrangement. I also hope that this record will inspire new understandings and perspectives on family memories and childhood traumas, prompting a reassessment of communication and interaction within families.

    In conclusion, I would like to say that for everyone, home is a word imbued with special significance, carrying the initial love and memories of our lives.

    影片讲述了主人公（自己）追寻爱与认知爱的故事。2023年，我给母亲打电话询问父母离婚的真相，母亲拒绝了他。之后，所有知情者都回避了这个话题，并指责我作为成年人的无知与幼稚。2024年，当我回到家乡，与母亲进行了面对面的谈话，我意识到我以为脆弱的母亲其实比我想象中的强大很多，她已经学会了放下过去，并带着微笑面对未来。谈话后，我终于意识到自己想要的并不仅父亲离开的真相，而是父亲对年少时自己缺少的那份爱的补偿。在这场12年的爱的错位中，我才是那个没有从过去释怀的人。通过这次追寻，我和多年未见的父亲心平气和地坐下来聊了聊天，同时我明白了需要与过去和解，才能走向未来。

    

    之所以叫“A Dairy Review To Myself”是因为通过我写的日记和发生的故事，我一步一步的和过去和解。同时回望这趟旅程，无论起点看起来多么偏激和幼稚，引领我前行的始终是对家的执念——那是从13岁至今的遗憾与不甘。或许在许多时候，家人在忙碌的生活中忽略了彼此的感受和需求，导致误解和隔阂的产生。我也希望通过这次的记录，让大家对于家庭记忆，童年伤痛有一些新的理解与想法，重新审视家人之间沟通和交流的方式。

    最后我想说对每个人来说，家都是一个具有特殊意义的词语，它承载着我们生命中最初的爱与记忆。